some personal thoughts/feelings about this whole event.

i was present at the autograph session at Lot 1. i was a witness when the door broke down. it was so emabarrassing and a major turn-off to see fellow Shawols like me doing such things. people were cutting queues of those that camped overnight. everything was so disorganised. there were also people scolding and hurling vulgarities at one another for cutting queues.

i can't say much at the autograph session as i wasn't in the queue. i reached CCK at only around 7, 8am + so i was just trying my luck to see if i was in the 1000. friends who were in the queue were constantly updating me about what was happening there in the early morning.

i've seen some fancams of SHINee's departure. the place was chaotic like hell. i won't say much cause i was too disappointed that SHINee was being touched by fans. almost close to getting molested. there were so little guards protecting them. there was a woman and she was as fierce as the managers. they kept screaming 'YAH! YAH!' to the fans.

for only this once, i love SHINee's managers. you could see that he was trying his best to protect the five boys. it was like a father trying to protect his sons from danger. they all looked so tired from the concert and they were wearing the concert outfits to the airport. they didn't even changed out of the clothes. Jonghyun looked pissed as he tried to move while fans were crowding them. Minho and Taemin was stucked at the back and they were blocked. one manager had to take care of Jonghyun and Key first, and Onew had another manager beside him (prolly due to his injury). Taemin and Minho were poor things that they were moving so slowly. Jonghyun and Key were quite well-protected... finally all of them squeezed their way through the crowd and the woman gave them each their passports to check in.

basing on all this that has happened, i don't know how SHINee feels of SG Shawols. rude? no manners? inconsiderate? out of control? crazy? i can't be sure that they might come back. SME was already nice enough to 'sacrifice' SHINee and send their currently-active idols here to test the market.

would it hurt if someone tried to pull you by force? SHINee would surely have bruises. in the case of touching, i bet they had scratches on their arms.

SG Shawols, have you ever thought of all this? you're only being selfish by thinking of 'touching' your favourite idol. have you ever thought that if many of you did that, SHINee would sure get hurt? you can counter by saying it's an instinct. but was SHINee willing? no they were being attacked and violated, i can say?

please ask yourself, is that touch so important? it's that important till it surpasses SHINee's safety and privacy? you want to scratch your favourite idols? think the big picture. don't think only for and about yourself. you all know it. taking pictures secretly are already considered as an invade of their privacy. what's more now that you're hurting them? at least taking pictures won't hurt them physically.

i have no face to see SHINee again. if they knew about all this that happen, i wonder how they would think of us... our reputation and first impression as SG Shawols are totally destroyed. i don't know if SME is willing to risk it once more to let us see SHINee again.

after all this... i still hope they do come back again to hold a concert of their own (but high chance no...) either way, i hope they come back for something... a fanmeet, perhaps? it's so hard to say...

this is my fan account of the concert.

1 Feb
end school at 4pm, rushed to meet Yuding and Ziyi... trained to City Hall tgt. we were so excited chatting on the train. the concert was good. really good~ i enjoyed so much that i had the urge to buy another ticket for 2 Feb's. i did not regret buying the $150 ticket. i've always wondered how they produce the background music of the songs and today i heard it live... i sat at row B. which was like... less than a metre away from the stage. had a clear, fantastic view of everyone performing. but the only bad thing was... the stage was a bit high and the mics for those singing were a bit soft that the music were louder than their voices.

Mario& was good. Nesty (the 3 girls) were so damn good. my hair keep standing and i had goosebumps. Mario was damn high, giving a lot of fan service. lots of eye contact with the fans. he even point to some fans while singing... i kept having eye contact with him. LOL. scully he remembered me from the previous Seoul'd out concert stalking. i gave a flying kiss and hand-heart to him. HAHAHAHA. he had lots of eye-contact with me. i kept umchio-ing. :X
like he was only singing to me. omg :X HAHAHA.

Oh Joonsung was so funny. kept saying thank you, gamsahabnida, i love Singapore/Singaporeans, sorry. during 3/4 of the concert, there were Heading to the Ground OST songs. and he started talking about DBSK and Yunho. he also mentioned Super Junior, f(x), Bobby Kim and of course, SHINee. saying how all of them were his best friends. funny guy...

Bobby Kim came out and sang Live or Die from Dream OST. the MC was introducing Bobby and had a small conversation with Bobby and Joonsung. while they did that, the crew were preparing 5 mics... for our lovely boys. SHINee then took the stage, and Joonsung did some hand-movement with each of them. something like what those Americans greet each other. the... hand-clasp with shoulders bumping each other. (sorry i don't know how to describe)

then it was SHINee with Countdown. they greeted fans with "Hello, we are SHINee!" and started singing... standing in a row was Onew - Taemin - Jonghyun - Minho - Key, as usual. they were quite spread out on stage...

Onew looked really handsome irl i swear. he was smiling so much~ and high (though injured, lol)
he was like clapping/waving his hands (Taemin and Key too) i was shocked at his too-awesome vocals. when i saw Onew on the stage and saw him performing... woah, i totally changed my impression of him. not that it was bad, but i was very VERY impressed. far far better what i thought of him at first. (now i love him even more~)

ok anyway, Taemin was still cute, as always~ he was quite high, surprisingly... he was swaying his body. he looked like he wanted to start dancing. LOL. his voice was a bit soft... but still not bad~ :)

i only noticed Jonghyun (he's my bias~) cause he was right in front of me. i almost died just looking and staring at him. HAHAHA. he was like there, just standing there. RIGHT IN FRONT. he was already making my jaw drop open and mouth going like this -> :O (exactly like the first time i saw him at airport)

he wore a tank top with a white blazer and black skinnies with 'shoelaces' plus boots.
all of them were wearing boots. Jonghyun was so frigging sexy. omg. but his hair wasn't styled so it was flat... he was a bit shy and nervous? and he seemed a bit tired. it was cute that he was so focused on singing his parts. he didn't interact much with the audience. but i was just gratefully admiring his serious face, the way he looked as he was trying his best to perform well.

he was looking at the tv on the floor (i'm guessing lyrics were on the screen) he was smiling occasionally but not showing his teeth... his voice wasn't that good during the perf... it wasn't out of range but it wasn't his best i guess...

nevertheless i still love him for being so hardworking and handsome. listening to Stand By Me live, i remembered how i first fell in love with his voice from there. and also, i was trying my best to find out from Shawols who sang that part.

after the performance, he seemed like he was rushing to get off the stage though.

Minho smiled very gently... very charismatic. when i first saw him on stage... woah, he was just standing there, (unknowingly) giving off a 'princely' image. i finally saw Minho. this was the guy who was nicknamed Flaming Charisma. and it was so true. though he wasn't my bias, he had that those charms which even I was attracted to. he rapped well in Countdown~ but he didn't have much parts in Stand By Me...

Key looked damn cool~ and HE WAS HIGH. he was waving his hands like Onew and Taemin.
quite a lot of fan service to us... and, erm... he forgot to rap his part and missed a beat in Countdown. so cute :X I CAUGHT TAEMIN UMCHIO-ING AT HIM. LOL! his voice was very good. all along, i knew that he could sing well. Almighty Key wasn't labelled as almighty for nothing. there wasn't anything he couldn't do cause i can't think of anything.

overall, i was most impressed with both Onew's and Key's voices. Key was so good in Stand By Me. not that i don't like the rest, but i was far more surprised at these two boys' live performance.

all of them didn't have much eye contact during the performance. oh, and their complexions are jjang. but maybe cause of the thick makeup... though i could see whiteheads and blackheads still. :X :X (DON'T CARE BOUT THAT. THEY'RE STILL TEENS. I FEEL HAPPY THAT THEY HAVE PIMPLES CAUSE I ALSO DO HAHAHA)

many shawols left after SHINee performed to queue for a 25-mins fansign by all the artistes performing. we left after the last song and the audience was shouting 'ENCORE ENCORE'. so Joonsung and Mario& came back on stage to perform more BOF songs.
but we left the concert hall to queue for the fansign.

i was very VERY UPSET. we were so close to getting our things signed... i had already prepared my Day photobook and black marker... like 5 people were in front of us and they told us that they were stopping soon. very disapointed. so Ziyi suggested we shout goodnight to them. and so we did.. i noticed Onew looked in our direction a few times at the queue behind the belt barrier when he realised there were no more fans were in the line up to sign... then when we shouted... all of them looked at us... i think some members of SHINee did wave back (couldn't really see)...

2 Feb
went for pomgmt lecture in the morning... then i left school to meet up with Ziyi and Yuding. trained to City Hall and we were just trying our luck today to see them. danced a bit at Esplanade. walked here and there... but didn't manage to see them, only their mini bus coming in from the hotel to the loading bay area. could only see the manager as the curtains were drawn. we were dancing at the area and the manager saw us dancing. but his face was expressionless and cold. (well, at least he saw. and that was what we wanted. hope he'd tell SHINee :X)

then while people were getting ready for the concert at 7.30pm, some fans saw SHINee walking around the basement; the cloak room and cafe area. but hat area was only for authorised staff and crew.

at 8pm +, we left for home. it was too late for us to go to airport to send them off. lol, my mom was already complaining that i was missing out on the dinner she cooked the past few days.

there was supposed to be a 30-mins fansign like on 1 Feb. but SHINee had to rush to airport so i heard that only Oh Joonsung and Mario& were signing. Bobby and SHINee had to leave as their flight was at 10.40pm.

(continued on next post)

hi. how long was it since i last blogged? LOL. was fricking busy stalking SHINee since they arrived on 29 Jan.

note: don't expect any picture/videos cause i wasn't taking any at all.

29 Jan
after internet web class, Shuhui, Huiyun, Heshun and me cabbed down to airport. met up with maxi stalkers Joyce, Alicia, Ziyi, Yuding, Yvonne etc. SHINee's flight was supposed to land at 8 or 9pm + but it got delayed mins by mins. so waited till 10pm before they came out. when they were walking out and fans were screaming, i nearly died from waiting.

i've never felt so nervous in my life before... my heart was going to fall out anytime from pumping too fast...

Taemin was holding his green passport and covering half his face. he was wearing a winter hat... and he looked tall~ i dunno if he was shy or what? (cause he was covering up) and he was umchio-ing.

next was Jonghyun, smiling happily. he wore his fedora hat. loved his bag, boots~ loved his whole outfit. my jaw dropped open 'cause he was... too... handsome... and he wasn't that short like he always say that of himself.. in conclusion, he looked even better than on tv. (BIASED!)

next was Key... he was covering up though... but we can see him umchio-ing behind his winter fur hoodie. Key looked quite tall too~ about the same height as Taemin...

Minho was walking beside the manager and he IS tall... he looked shorter beside the manager cause manager-sshi was even taller! he was smiling too.. wearing a white adidas jacket and jeans.

i didn't see Onew and we all panicked... wondering where he was, if he did came or not...
so we rushed to the maxi first... none of them waved though... guess they were tired. they all boarded a big excursion bus...

{edit} Onew did came, but cause we rushed off after the other 4 appeared and didn't get to see him. his leg was injured and he was pushing a luggage trolley (for support i think). the other manager was walking beside him and he seemed extremely smiley as he walked slowly to the bus... i heard from other Shawols that he had a red pimple on the left of his face. (maybe that was his bare face, makeup-less)

30 Jan
never really got to see them from stalking the whole day... only saw Oh Joonsung and Mario& etc. they ate at a jap restaurant and sat in the open. don't know if SHINee ate... or maybe they packed dinner back to hotel to eat. saw their mini bus coming out from the Esplanade loading bay.

Key seemed to be in a bad mood cause he sort of diao-ed us...
then Jonghyun shyly smiled... i was standing directly in front of their bus...
i think he saw me waving...

so there was a female crew member. she was sitting behind Jjong in the bus.
cause we were waving and he didn't waved back, the girl took his hand...
he let her do 'control' his hand and 'waved' for him...

Taemin was a bit shocked... and he was so cute...
he put his hands on the headboard and leaned forward.
giving the slightly shocked expression.

didn't see Minho but Denise said that he was smiling...

31 Jan
nothing much. didn't really get to see them. Ziyi, Yuding and me slept only 1 hour the night before. met up at 6am + and trained to CCK. the queue at Lot 1 for the autograph session was crazy. people queued since the afternoon before and overnight... $60 for 2009, Year Of Us album with one pass and poster.

there were crazy fans who forced open and banged the automatic door at the entrance of the mall. they were shouting "OPEN OPEN OPEN!" and... the door was spoilt in the end... -.-" it bent inwards and for the rest of the day, it was spoilt. the place was littered badly too...

i'm so disgusted by their actions. Shawols aren't supposed to act like this.

{edit} i've split the fan account into three posts.

one is bout the stalking experience (look for post titled SHINee Stalking Experience).
the other is about the concert (SHINee Stalking Experience 2).
and the third one is my thoughts/feelings on this whole event (SHINee Stalking Experience 3).

oh, and i realised i had many errors while typing cause i was blogging at 2 or 3am. pardon me. i've updated it more properly with more details.

HEY MY *cough* LOYAL *cough* READERS!!! xDDD
*cough cough coughhhh*

it's been long since i updated. lols :3
it didn't seem very long that for me though. :X

9/1/10
YES. the fantastic elastic meetup with shawols again.
this time there were lesser people, prolly due to school start.
woohoo~ danced RDD and Replay againzxzx.

i was hardworking enough to 'yan jiu' the RDD dance.
cos the 'feel' was still there. LOL.
now i've learnt the opening till the 'rocka' part! :D
will show Ziyi this sat~ then she can correct me if i'm wrong.

oh oh! i kept dream about K-pop idols (if not SHINee) too!!!
HOW FANTASTIC IS THAT? well, tbh, not really. LOL.
but yeah, i've been sleeping well these days.
don't know if it's cause of the wonderful weather or what.
new room maybe? (my house renovations are completed)

i dream about K-pop idols (if not SHINee) almost every night.
HOW FANTASTIC IS THAT? xD


i'm having mixed feelings nowadays, again.
certain people with weird attitude? weird character?

why people are giving up on you?

there'll come to a point where people just don't know what to say anymore. utter disappointment is what they feel.

these problems have always been around, but they were just camouflaged.

there are things i know and i feel about.
but i've had that habit of keeping things to myself to an extent.

maybe sometimes it's because i'm tolerant with people.
maybe sometimes it's because i give people that minumum respect a human should own. it applies to anyone.

on a side note, my life is miserable without $. LOL.
who can teach me how to live a life without the existence of $?
temptations are all around. teach me how.
why am i so broke? whywhy whyyyy D:

i'm too absorbed in my SHINee World.
i have spent my 2-weeks holidaying there.
engrossed with a Romeo and Juliet love story.

but for now, it's time to get back to Planet Earth.
say hello to lectures and tutorials and projects DUE.
-faint-